random doodling :)

the pearl drop

descends from the store above

caressing the furrows of life

the heart thinks, the mind screams

is this where it all begins?

as the chill & spray slap the face

urge,stabs,passion, all a haze

fighting to gain precedence

will it be? or it is just a game?

will realisation hit the highest

or meander, playing name

will the plant stand while forests fall

when will it resonate? nature's call?

the soul longs as it groans

for its no longer saint

as old wounds mock again

searching for what it owns

and as the sword is returned

the first rays hit the now plains

still the mind screams

and the heart beats blood to the drains.

-arch

stuff and naansense

im in a hostel..in a place called coimbatore...away from everything which i used to call life..among stuff which is sumtyms too good to be life or too wierd to be happening...

im still veeery confused...hw did i land up here...one pathetic lil girl hu aimed to be a oxford univ grad...ends up in agri univ n does engineering...for heavens sake..

but i still feel thrs this invisible force which is constantly telling me what to do..u c..its incredible hw my instinct works at a particular tym..lyk zapak...nd the result cms out well..oder tyms even if i mukkufy the shit outta me noothing wrks...thts hw being arch is..

hmmmm...instinct..led me here..led me to bc...led me to sunderbans...led me to mukteshwar...i met "people"..nd lo! guess hus found smbdy very interesting..lol

but ppl have still stuck wid me...monkey..fr being the monkey that he is...damn ur a kid..dint knw what to do wen he started weeping..live on mate..ur still a kid..

shin!! the one hu i almost lost to tears..the one hus here..the one hu needs to lrn a lot...aand the one hu cn be very irritating...especially considering the circumstances that im in..:P

art..the perennial kd :D..really nice female...preeth..one of the most cultured and thoughful prsn that iv ever met..very cute...harsh..lol..has a good head on her shoulders...sound n nirosh rock..the daddy was a big breakup though..

the guys suck..like yeww..secnd yrs are fyn..cpl of them//kartik duplicate here also..haha..i love myself..

redemption has been good..though i need to pull up my act..will miss chennai..still owe it fr giving me a new life...

can write pages and pages about the interesting topic..distance can do wierd things..everythings still a null set... wid folks mving outa chennai..itl b void..still...instinct tld me to go on..so i am..i will always..:)

loves mrithu fr javagreen..miss her..miss music..its wen i found that person asking me to sing at 3:00 a.m. that i realised what im missing in life..shit..

so as my first sem comes to an end...i think abt everything dats hpnd..whew! literally everything has hpnd..nd i hope to find my purpose of cming here...instinct help me out..

still thinking what to do that day :(

hates them fr cnceling the strike..dyl pay

nilgiri exp makes me lauf..gosh hw will i travel in upper berth nw?? funny funny...oh btw cp understood..woaw..

xo

meeeeeee

heylo 106.4

was on radio tode..wheee..had fun..nd really meeting green people reminds me how little iv been doing n how much iv been sleeping..tcha..i love my sleep though..daah..went on a drive yesday..lyk old tyms..ws mahabalipuram n not chandigarh..cha..i miss dat highway :((
dunno muddled ryt nw..lisnin to bichraa yaar..whee agn..dunno..people man..how does one fathom them?? feel im frm one far away planet..its so deft..soo effin effortless..crap..im learning about human lif aint i?? lol..just wana break away..but cant..u no..in all the cases..im left squirming..o god..thyr brilliant..these humans..
waddo i do?..im lyk this rohu among piranhas..angel support frm both sides dosnt understand me does it?? hell no...nd den i feel its me hus nt been makin an effort..wid nethin..nd it comes bak to sleeping..lol..
i need that desire... long enuf its been..of mud, of those burst tyres, of those bogged dwn days, of that god damned wheezing sound haunting me, of ineptitude, of inaction, of backstabbing, of vagueness ..getlost...i need to live man..
nd yeah thanks fr readin this

i dont know why im writing this in the first place...sculs over..everythings gone...done and dusted..i was told to ryt abt the good things..ll ryt about everything..

ryt so there i was..holding this school leaving certificate in my hand..hoping against hope that i wont get admission in 'that' scul..i dint study for 'that' entrance..i remember 'that' 10th april..everyone called me..dats wen i knew dat i had people hu really dint want me to go...i was happy :)...btw i still have those msgs

sankara changed me..first (till the last) perpetually, i cudnt understand how things worked...there were studies, tough yes, but for a GG..lyk me..as they say multiple devastation..lol..nd then there were people...really amazing ones, really stupid ones, ones hum u cud vomit on...hey rauwolfa vomitoria..lol..i was told not to stand on formalities hw can i forget that...there was dubai..delhi..kolkata..nd everytym i heard ppl bak home saying that i was having a nyc tym whyl they suffered..id say i saw a lot..at home, away..people...i learnt a lot..

i wont say he's been unfair...perhaps that was what was meant to happen..it happened for me with a stupid chemistry lesson in 10th, happened after an interview, it also happned after that horrible wheezing sound, and that jingle..nanana..among other things were our songs! me n ammu, sailesh..lol..dat meeta mam class, bhagya!!, sattys doubt sessions, kosu!!, ambigaa and that 'double salt' analysis wen me jan n ananth wr mixing up stuf..our gigs..me mrithula n gang, sanmun, dpsmun,timogi!!lol..kassey..lol again, ...our bench..dat day wen it rained, that cyclone...stuff man..kewl stuff

i love my life...jus the past baggage dsnt go...it will...:D