One day I decided to quit... I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.

"God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?" His answer surprised me...

"Look around", He said.. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?" "Yes", I replied.

When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed.

But I did not quit on the bamboo. In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.

"In the third year, there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. In the fourth year, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. "I would not quit.." He said. "Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.

Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant... But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.

It had spent the five years growing roots.

Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."

He said to me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots."

"I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you. " Don't compare yourself to others .." He said. " The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern ... Yet, they both make the forest beautiful."

Your time will come, " God said to me. " You will rise high! " How high should I rise?" I asked.

How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return. "As high as it can? " I questioned.

" Yes. " He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can. "

I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you. He will never give up on you. Never regret a day in your life.

Good days give you happiness
Bad days give you experiences;
Both are essential to life.

A happy and meaningful life requires our continuous input and creativity. It does not happen by chance. It happens because of our choices and actions. And each day we are given new opportunities to choose and act and, in doing so, we create our own unique journey." Keep going...

wen it gets friggin bugging...nd i remember..blog!! :P

u know wen you chase something in life, you don't get it. i had seen that. so i thot leme wait for it n see, still dint get it :D

wen parents become old, they become the most vulnerable beings on this planet. i used to think that it is the kids who don't understand them, but they also don't seem to understand the kids.

the world changes in every zillionth of a second. they dont. so while you are outside combating the change, you come home to little change or even stagnation. its friggin difficult.

so im dealing here wid two things, one, my inability to find work, and other, my waning patience wid my very own uncle and aunty.

is it me? or are they at fault? who goddamn knows..the only thing know is that if i say something, the aunty summons her decibels in her lata mangeshkar voice and justifies, leave alone justifying, she'll make dis 'sho' noise, which has become a cult after my dear granma started using it..so wat do you do? shut up and walk on the road blinded by the darned water that comes out impairing your vision. and it all comes back to how fucked up her life is. "andha aaya notice eduthutaan" she sez..oh jesus..

and the world dosnt seem to echo my enthusiasm. im not somewhere where things come to me, they come after ensuring im outta that radius. people say dont get frustrated..learn..i ask HOW??

bobs is showing me everything now. gd hard to cope, considering the meat i was fed upon since childhood. so i shd sit at home and relax, do normal things, watch tv, go online, cut cabbage..stop expecting that something will happen if i try. like i said, it will happen wen it has to, and at that time, i wdnt even have moved my ass.

sayonara!

whew!

too many things to digest...cudnt wait till tomorrow...so here i go..

nilgiris "happened" to me...if sunderbans showed me a path to follow, this has led me to think which path to follow...life looks exciting now..

but everybodys sad...nd its ironical that people are talking about breaking up n stuff..things change..views differ...and its absolutely incredible how a little crevice leads to the crumbling o the whole bridge...but one cant avoid those crevices can they? shit im blabbering...but still...for me its difficult to imagine how things change so rapidly...maybe my "past tours" insight has rusted a bit...

i liked nilgiris...i liked the camp..was very different, the whole experience...not including the over scientific stuff they came up wid time and again...but in terms of getting to know people...i saw people from a completely different perspective this time...tried analysing...instead of being the "im a kid and everything around me is nice" sorta thing...id say i achieved 40% of what i set out to do..again i repeat my favourite lines..bloody brilliant these humans are..:D damnit...

cherish every moment i spent wid the "tree" as ananth calls it...hahaha..its like i can put my imagination in perspective and proceed...it did good to the comfort level also, these 10 days...which is again good...

i like the way thanukardhu is handling things..but then again...dunno..like i said before...its like a sapling standing when forests around it are falling...and it knows that it has to stand..it should bear more seeds and restore the forest...its simple..its brilliant...woohoo

nd arch loves the fact that the two other stupid parts of her soul are coming...wana rediscover them too..

aand now you know y i said whew!! i hope

ciao :D :P

random doodling :)

the pearl drop

descends from the store above

caressing the furrows of life

the heart thinks, the mind screams

is this where it all begins?

as the chill & spray slap the face

urge,stabs,passion, all a haze

fighting to gain precedence

will it be? or it is just a game?

will realisation hit the highest

or meander, playing name

will the plant stand while forests fall

when will it resonate? nature's call?

the soul longs as it groans

for its no longer saint

as old wounds mock again

searching for what it owns

and as the sword is returned

the first rays hit the now plains

still the mind screams

and the heart beats blood to the drains.

-arch

stuff and naansense

im in a hostel..in a place called coimbatore...away from everything which i used to call life..among stuff which is sumtyms too good to be life or too wierd to be happening...

im still veeery confused...hw did i land up here...one pathetic lil girl hu aimed to be a oxford univ grad...ends up in agri univ n does engineering...for heavens sake..

but i still feel thrs this invisible force which is constantly telling me what to do..u c..its incredible hw my instinct works at a particular tym..lyk zapak...nd the result cms out well..oder tyms even if i mukkufy the shit outta me noothing wrks...thts hw being arch is..

hmmmm...instinct..led me here..led me to bc...led me to sunderbans...led me to mukteshwar...i met "people"..nd lo! guess hus found smbdy very interesting..lol

but ppl have still stuck wid me...monkey..fr being the monkey that he is...damn ur a kid..dint knw what to do wen he started weeping..live on mate..ur still a kid..

shin!! the one hu i almost lost to tears..the one hus here..the one hu needs to lrn a lot...aand the one hu cn be very irritating...especially considering the circumstances that im in..:P

art..the perennial kd :D..really nice female...preeth..one of the most cultured and thoughful prsn that iv ever met..very cute...harsh..lol..has a good head on her shoulders...sound n nirosh rock..the daddy was a big breakup though..

the guys suck..like yeww..secnd yrs are fyn..cpl of them//kartik duplicate here also..haha..i love myself..

redemption has been good..though i need to pull up my act..will miss chennai..still owe it fr giving me a new life...

can write pages and pages about the interesting topic..distance can do wierd things..everythings still a null set... wid folks mving outa chennai..itl b void..still...instinct tld me to go on..so i am..i will always..:)

loves mrithu fr javagreen..miss her..miss music..its wen i found that person asking me to sing at 3:00 a.m. that i realised what im missing in life..shit..

so as my first sem comes to an end...i think abt everything dats hpnd..whew! literally everything has hpnd..nd i hope to find my purpose of cming here...instinct help me out..

still thinking what to do that day :(

hates them fr cnceling the strike..dyl pay

nilgiri exp makes me lauf..gosh hw will i travel in upper berth nw?? funny funny...oh btw cp understood..woaw..

xo

meeeeeee

heylo 106.4

was on radio tode..wheee..had fun..nd really meeting green people reminds me how little iv been doing n how much iv been sleeping..tcha..i love my sleep though..daah..went on a drive yesday..lyk old tyms..ws mahabalipuram n not chandigarh..cha..i miss dat highway :((
dunno muddled ryt nw..lisnin to bichraa yaar..whee agn..dunno..people man..how does one fathom them?? feel im frm one far away planet..its so deft..soo effin effortless..crap..im learning about human lif aint i?? lol..just wana break away..but cant..u no..in all the cases..im left squirming..o god..thyr brilliant..these humans..
waddo i do?..im lyk this rohu among piranhas..angel support frm both sides dosnt understand me does it?? hell no...nd den i feel its me hus nt been makin an effort..wid nethin..nd it comes bak to sleeping..lol..
i need that desire... long enuf its been..of mud, of those burst tyres, of those bogged dwn days, of that god damned wheezing sound haunting me, of ineptitude, of inaction, of backstabbing, of vagueness ..getlost...i need to live man..
nd yeah thanks fr readin this

i dont know why im writing this in the first place...sculs over..everythings gone...done and dusted..i was told to ryt abt the good things..ll ryt about everything..

ryt so there i was..holding this school leaving certificate in my hand..hoping against hope that i wont get admission in 'that' scul..i dint study for 'that' entrance..i remember 'that' 10th april..everyone called me..dats wen i knew dat i had people hu really dint want me to go...i was happy :)...btw i still have those msgs

sankara changed me..first (till the last) perpetually, i cudnt understand how things worked...there were studies, tough yes, but for a GG..lyk me..as they say multiple devastation..lol..nd then there were people...really amazing ones, really stupid ones, ones hum u cud vomit on...hey rauwolfa vomitoria..lol..i was told not to stand on formalities hw can i forget that...there was dubai..delhi..kolkata..nd everytym i heard ppl bak home saying that i was having a nyc tym whyl they suffered..id say i saw a lot..at home, away..people...i learnt a lot..

i wont say he's been unfair...perhaps that was what was meant to happen..it happened for me with a stupid chemistry lesson in 10th, happened after an interview, it also happned after that horrible wheezing sound, and that jingle..nanana..among other things were our songs! me n ammu, sailesh..lol..dat meeta mam class, bhagya!!, sattys doubt sessions, kosu!!, ambigaa and that 'double salt' analysis wen me jan n ananth wr mixing up stuf..our gigs..me mrithula n gang, sanmun, dpsmun,timogi!!lol..kassey..lol again, ...our bench..dat day wen it rained, that cyclone...stuff man..kewl stuff

i love my life...jus the past baggage dsnt go...it will...:D